Hello all

I've just decided to make a new journal.
I don't know why really.
It's almost the same name xxkassimiraxx.
Anywho, I'm going to delete this one in a few days or a week or something like that.
I'll probably add most of you from my LJ list. If you don't want to add me back, that's cool.

I just canceled my WoW payment account. It makes me sad, but I haven't played in 2 months. Before that I would play for about a week every other month and then get distracted. I probably could have saved about $100 over the past 6 months with the amount I've played. I'm too broke right now to be paying for something I don't use.

Hopefully I'll reactivate it in January when I'll be making more money.
I know, I'm a loser.

In other news, I'm really bad at using regular mail.
I need to send my sister-in-law her birthday card.

I really do dislike waking up this early.
What I dislike even more that I'll be going until I get out of work tonight.

What's good about this? Dinosaurs.
Yep.

The end.

And so begins a very difficult stretch of months. I can't stand missing people anymore. It just seems more get added to the list though.
I'm at least very busy today. It will hopefully keep my mind off of it. That or some customer will be mean to me at work and I'll have a nervous breakdown.

It's nothing bad today, I guess. It's just a little sad. I bet Shaun would have liked to see his sister get married. It's strange how seven years doesn't really make me miss him any less. I know it's the same for her. I'll have to give her a call later.
<3

At least it's beginning to get cool outside again.

My teacher used the word "pedantic" today. Instead of paying attention to the point he was making, I had to bite the inside of my cheek to stop from laughing.

I watch too much Family Guy. The near laughter continued for the next 20 minutes of class until I got out and burst out laughing.

I'm a good student, really.

I must first state that Flogging Molly were amazing. They were absolutely fucking amazing. We had to sit through some less amazing bands before that, but the Pavilion has a lot of space to wander around in.

Secondly, strangely enough, green tea rice cakes with almond butter are delicious. I just ran into a case of, "I just got back from class and I'm really starving. What's in my cabinet?" I'm starting to adjust to almond butter, but it's still not as delicious as peanut butter. Boo.

I have a lot of reading to do in the next couple hours. I don't feel like it. My Mondays and Wednesdays have a weird schedule. Oh damn, I just realized I forgot to pick up the book I needed from the bookstore. I don't feel like going back out, but I may have time after my afternoon class. Rah.

I'm pretty tired and procrastinating at the moment. I feel like if I start reading I'm going to fall asleep. Let's hope not.

I think being in school makes me update this thing more. Basically because I'm in front of my computer more.

So I already have a ton of homework. I did have plans tonight but because of school and lack of money we all decided to not go out. I think perhaps I'll be a complete nerd and read some articles on a Friday night. Unless something comes up. Oh the distractions of life.

I just spilled some water all over my computer and wires. That was...not fun. At the moment I'm just sitting around. I only have one class on Friday mornings, and I ran most of my errands. I do still need to run to Staples, but I really am just that lazy. It's all the way on the other side of the Fens. I'm on a super budget at the moment. Just until this whole wedding business is over. That's in 2 weeksish. Should be fun, but considering gifts and such I'm pretty broke.

I had a nurse pretty much destroy my arm yesterday trying to have blood drawn. She claimed that my vein was just not there. Do I look human? Yes? Then there's a vein there. I know for a fact that mine is just slightly to the left, but that has never stopped someone from finding it before. Seeing as my other arm has a sun reaction on it, she was all "I'm going in through the hand"! I politely replied with a "fuck no". I took the order sheet and I'll have it done at my school. Actually, I'll go to my real doctor and see what she has to say about all this business this recent doctor is doing. It's kind of bullshit if you ask me.

Well, I just finished up some yoga before this. I should probably shower or something. Then eat... Although I need to ration food. The need for school supplies has limited my food money for the week to about $35, which I just spent. Living off of rice this week...

Flogging Molly tomorrow! Huzzah!

So, considering yesterday was horrible, today as pretty awesome. Yesterday Northeastern was all "you owe us money"! Then I'm all "What the fuck"?! And no one had ANY idea what the hell was going on.
Now, ladies and gentlemen, I may be falling apart, but I am not completely devoid of luck. Somehow in some magical way all of the intensely huge problems of yesterday worked themselves out. I was also only a half an hour late for work. I chalk this up to my grandmother keeping an eye on me. I really can't explain it any other way.

So today I happily woke up at 6 a.m. to make it to my 8 a.m. class. Not only did yesterday make me more motivated for this semester, but I'm on the Dean's list and I'd like to keep it that way. My grandfather did a few favors for me yesterday and he said he just wants me to get good grades. It seems manageable if you ask me.

My classes today were great. I really liked my teachers and I'm excited for the classes. Well, I wasn't excited for my advanced writing in the humanities class, but the teacher changed that. He's this super enthusiastic Irish guy who seems quite entertaining. My problem with writing classes isn't the writing part. It's that halfway through I get antsy and stop caring about the work. My mentality is basically "I've already written a bunch of papers... why more"? This guy actually mentioned that problem in his intro lecture and said he was going to try and avoid that occurrence. The syllabus seemed pretty variable. I think I could just battle through it, and with a little extra effort pull off an A.

My 8 am is going to be kind of tough. It's sort of material I've already had classes on, but from an anthropological perspective. This is my first anthro class and I can see why. It's interesting, but I'm not a fan of the way it's presented. There's a reason I'm drawn to psychology I guess. Oh, that brings me back. I'm the only psych major in my writing class. I've never been the only psych major. It's weird... Anyway, my anthro class is Sex and Gender in Society or something like that. Interesting material and the teacher seems pretty nice. The only problem is it is 8 am and it seems like a straight lecture class. It also involves a lot of readings. Nothing I'm not used to... just can't promise I won't sleep through it either. If I can get myself on a set schedule this should be no problem, but if sleeping troubles come up again this may have issues. I'm excited for it either way.

But my most favoritest class of all time is... AGE OF DINOSAURS!
A class like that just needs to be in caps. The teacher is marvelously out of his mind and we learn about dinosaurs. What more could you ask for? After the first day I was already bouncing around I was so excited. It also really makes me want to watch Jurassic Park...


Thanks to yoga my knee and shoulder are slightly better. They're definately not best, but they're not causing me constant pain anymore either. This is definately something I can live with. It does require a good half hour minimum devoted to yoga every day, preferably more than that. Not that I don't want to do this, but especially with my 30ish hours of work a week it gets difficult. Also, having issues with fatigue already. The general feeling that I could lie down and sleep all day is not good. Still, moving in positive directions.

Other than that...
Cousins wedding in a couple weeks
Cousins bachelorette party
and most importantly... (not really though, weddings are way more important)
FLOGGING MOLLY THIS SATURDAY!
Yeah, I'm pumped.

So yes, I never update this. Ever. I kind of wish I did. I suppose I don't have anything all that interesting to say anyway. So a general update is going to happen now. Huzzah.

I just got back from California last week. It really is always sunny out there. It's beautiful too. Beautiful to vacation there at least. I would never live there. I'm just a stuck in Massachusetts kind of gal I suppose.
My niece is both wonderful and beautiful. I adore everything she does and it kills me that she has to live so far away right now. Oh the adventures we would have if she were here.
The only big thing I did out there was go to Disneyland. Very fun and exciting, but exhausting. The rest of the time my brother was working, so it was mainly going out to lunch with my sister-in-law and buying my niece things. It was a nice break from my regular routine though.

I just finished up a shift at work. I'm really pushing overtime there lately. It seems I'm really broke these days, and I have quite a few expenses coming up. Being in my cousin's wedding is definately upping the costs of regular things as well. Not that I mind. I get to pick everything I'm wearing and such so I can keep it at a budget. But yes, lately it seems the least amount of hour I'm putting in are 7 hour shifts. Boo... it makes me tired.

Health wise I'm doing fairly well. *knocks on wood* I've gone into extreme lock down with my diet and I'm managing yoga at least once a day. I'm sort of telling my body that if life is going to push me around, I might as well push back. I'm just getting so tired of feeling "sick". I'm young, I should be able to enjoy my life. It's exactly what I plan to do.

I start school next week. This is the end of my "junior" year. This would be a senior year at any other school, but co-op prolongs that. I'm taking: Age of Dinosaurs, New England Fisheries, Gender and Society, and Middler Writing. Random classes, but I don't need any more psych ones.
OH OH! I've found out that there's a possibility of going to grad school for free if I work for Northeastern. I need to find out the surrounding information, but my problems may be solved! I hope. I hope. I hope!

I'm not really sure what else is happening. I'm seeing a lot of my Boston friends lately, but less of my friends from back home. So it's good and bad. I'm excited about Halloween coming up.
Not much else.
I'm going to roll down a giant hill in a giant plastic ball this weekend.
The end.

So yeah, I never use this anymore. I do read my friends list on a regular type basis and whatnot. I just feel like I don't have too much to say. All my energy these days goes into work and trying to have a somewhat normal life. There's very little left over for sorting my thoughts out on here. Which is too bad because then my thoughts are just jumbled.

What has been happening lately?
My grandfather unfortunately fell last night. He broke his collarbone and is in some pretty decent pain. All in all the situation could have been worse so I'm thankful. I was a complete mess last night though. He's a tough guy, so he'll be alright.
I was in Colorado for a while. It was great. It's absolutely beautiful out there. I caught up with my cousin and his family as well.
A lot of birthday happenings lately... A lot of being dragged from one end of Boston to the other. I don't mind.♠ I'm enjoying it.
My brother is flying me out to California at the end of August. I'm so excited to see my niece! She's getting so big and I'm not around for it so I need to at least see her from time to time.
Health wise has been a bit of a battle lately. I'm doing well right now though. I guess that's all that matters.

I just got out of work so my brain is fried. I suppose I would have more to say, but for now I figure I'll go do some yoga. Perhaps I'll try to update this thing more.

So, I had today off because I had Jury Duty. I've discovered that my life would be quite pleasant without the idea of work looming over me.

So, I woke up before 6 (I usually have my alarm go off at 6 and roll out of bed around 7 cuz I'm lazy) and showered and everything. This is way more productive than I will ever be on a day I'm going to work. I'm usually a hot mess when I walk in there. I took my time getting ready and threw on a skirt and a tank top (much more comfortable than my usual suffocating all black attire in this weather).
I left at 7 because I wasn't entirely sure as to the whereabouts of the courthouse. Lucky for me, I had a note from my doctor to excuse me. Even luckier for me, jury duty was canceled. Of course, this means I never had to wake up at all, but I would have anyway. So now I've officially served my time and wont be put back on the listing for next year. I did have to wander around for a half an hour to find it. I had asked my friend where it was, and he kind of pointed me in the wrong direction. Whoops!
Once out of there I desperately needed coffee, so I wandered over to one of the 50 million Starbucks in the area and got a soy latte. I really would prefer Dunkins, but unfortunately they don't carry soy milk and I wasn't in the mood to drink my coffee black. I decided I very rarely have days to myself with nothing extraordinarily pressing to do and going back to my apartment would just result in my napping. There's definately nothing wrong with that, but I prefer to save naps for days I've worked and actually need to. So I figured that I knew the Government Center area, but I didn't know it well enough to find my way to the places I'd like to be (proven by my previous adventure: Let's Find the Courthouse). It was at this point I took off on my new adventure: Let's Walk Around the Boston Harbor/City Hall area until I've placed all the common landmarks/buildings on my internal map. At that point in time had just been floating around in my sort of limbo area for things I'm not quite sure about. I had already been to the actual harbor and aquarium part, which was nice as usual. I do think I'd get turned around trying to get there again. I feel like I think its in the wrong direction from Fannuel Hall. The harbor is generally easy to find though. So I walked back through Fannuel Hall and headed onwards through some back streets until I reached the Haymarket/North End area. I decided I didn't feel like wandering around the North End because that would result in me likely eating something delicious that I shouldn't and my energy levels would drop. I feel pretty decent today. Why ruin it? Since I didn't feel like wander into the North End (although I did feel like seeing the old building my friend used to live in... it's pretty) and I wasn't quite ready to head back on the T, I figured I'd have a seat by some fountains and people watch for a little.
After about a half an hour I figured I should head out, but I wanted to walk some more and didn't quite want to be back in my usual area, so I hopped on the T and got off at the Commons. I found a bench to sit on and read Fragile Things by Neil Gaiman for a bit. It was strangely quiet in the city today. Eventually, I got up and started heading for the Prudential because I had to talk to someone at work. That walk is usually enjoyable because you can kind of wander between Newbury and Boylston if you don't have anything important to do. I walked through Copley and was sad because the Market wasn't set up yet. Then I looked up and had an amazing idea! I should go in the library! I usually don't go into the Boston Public Library because I'm not over there very often. So I walked on in and wandered about the books for a while. There is a nice section in the other building but I realized I had a call from Pam at work and thought I should be on my way.
I continued my little adventure until I got back to the all too familiar Prudential area and stopped in at Gamestop before I went to work. There went some money I didn't have in the first place. I reluctantly went towards work, afraid they were going to ask me to work today since I girl walked out during her shift and I had already not been there in the morning. Luckily they didn't, but I did pick up a shift for tomorrow night. I'm broke, what can I say? I don't really think I'd know what to do with myself if I had a whole day with nothing actually planned to do anyway. After that I ran errands and came home and cooked myself breakfast.


I did all of that before 11 in the morning. Damn, without work I can be a productive person. I've course, I'd be a productive homeless person. Either way...
It's kind of funny how I've gone from one end of Boston to the other today. Most of that was on foot as well. Boston really is a pretty small city.
Now I'm going to spend some roommate time and probably do some laundry and clean after.
Oh, what a nice day!

I figure I should update this thing for the sake of updating.

I was sick for the past couple days. Mainly because of the sudden humidity and the fact that I had a lot of non-anti-inflammatory diet products over the weekend. I was at a ball game! I couldn't help but drink beer and eat hot dogs! But yeah, it caused a huge flare up of symptoms.

Speaking of, Mary treated me to a Red Sox game on Friday. We lost by a ridiculous amount, but we had barely been paying attention to the game. I hadn't seen her in weeks so it was great to see her. We're going on a mini vacation up to New Hampshire next weekend.
Also, on the subject of people I haven't seen in a while... I saw Ivonne not too long ago. She came into Boston and we had a great time running around for the weekend.

Um... What else what else...
It's employee appreciation week at work. So we have an extra discount on books and such...
I got:
A couple of kids books to read to my niece (Cloudy With Chance of Meatballs, another one...)
A Curious Incident of a Dog in the Nighttime (I don't think that's the exact title but I can't quite remember it)
House of Leaves (Already read it, never owned it)
The second book by previous author
Fragile Things (The last book I didn't own by the one and only Neil Gaiman)
the new Jakob Dylan CD!! I love it!
I saw him on Sunday. It was really amazing. I don't care if that makes me a loser.

But yeah, yay for spending money I don't have.

On the job front, I think I'm going to be picking up an extra job after I finish class next week. I'm really going to try and stick with Barnes and Noble through January when I'll go on my next co-op. Recent events are making that difficult though... But really, I get paid a lot for making drinks and they let me pick my own schedule. It's kind of ideal for a student. Also they'd understand if I end up having to have surgery on my shoulder...

I don't know what else is up. I have to write a paper later. It's due tomorrow and I have no idea what I'm going to write it on. Yay...

My mind is racing.
I have to get up for work soon.

I've been flipping through one of my E.E. Cummings books of poetry to calm my mind.

who knows if the moon's
a balloon, coming out of a keen city
in the sky- filled with pretty people?
(and if you and i should

get into it,if they
should take me and take you into their balloon,
why then
we'd go up higher with all the pretty people

than houses and steeples and clouds:
go sailing
away and away sailing into a keen
city which nobody's ever visited,where

always
it's
Spring)and everyone's
in love and flowers pick themselves




yeah
it's like a Picasso with words
he's insanity
I love it.

Figured I'd update.
Things are pretty good lately.
I saw Devotchka on Sunday. I've been waiting for them to come back to the Boston area for 2 years! They were amazing. Especially since they were headlining instead of opening. I do adore them quite a lot. I also saw Ingrid Michaelson on Thursday. I'm going to see Jakob Dylan in June and I'm planning on seeing Amanda Palmer with the Boston Pops in June as well! I also have a new plan of possibly seeing the Counting Crows in August. I love summer for the concerts.

The anti-inflammatory diet is going surprisingly well. I have noticed and increase in energy and a slight decrease in pain (in my back only). It's also not as difficult to live without bread and cheese as I thought. Every now and then I feel like I could kill for a bagel, but other than that I'm doing okay. I've even cut back on my coffee drinking to a few times a week. I even throw some decaf in there instead from time to time (blasphemy!). It's been about 2-1/2 weeks, but seems like a long time. I generally do feel better because of it. Of course, I am basically eating vegetables, brown rice, and fruit. It's strangely easy to turn down cookies and such because I can't have them. I thought it was going to be harder. I'm sure I'll have my moments though.

Also, I saw Narnia last night. Amazing! I want to live there. I'm gunna hopefully go see it again with an old friend of mine.

I'm gunna be late for class! oops!

So as an act of absolute desperation, I'm going to go on an anti-inflammatory diet. I just got some material on it today and can I just say... I can't eat anything ever again. No peanut butter?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!
Everything seems well informed and researched though. I can only hope this helps. If doctors aren't doing anything for me, I have to do something to try and help myself. If nothing else, this is probably the healthiest thing I've ever seen.
No more eating out, which is what I sort of rely on lately. I'm going to have to get into pre-cooking food since I have limited amounts of time. My wallet will be happy. I waste a ton of money on food every week.
I'm going to have to find new ways to bake. Baking has always been my go to stress relief. Not for the eating part, but for the routine part. It's just calming to me. I can find ways around this.
I'm going to have to clean out my cabinets. They are full of things that I shouldn't be eating. This is going to get 10x more difficult when my roommate is back from being home over the summer. I'm glad I decided to do this while she was away. Now I can adjust myself without having to worry about another person.
I'm also going to have to research a lot of the foods mentioned(or more the base foods). Some of the flours and such mentioned I've never heard about. I'm hoping whole foods will sell them.

So yeah... fun times. If this makes me feel better I don't really give a damn about everything else.

I hate money. I hate the need for it. I hate that I feel lost because I took a couple days off from work and seem to have completely forgotten what to do with free time.

Stressful stressful day...

Updating for the sake of updating. It's been chilly out for a while. I'm kind of enjoying it. The weather makes everything seem quiet.
I've been sleeping a lot. I'm at one of the low points of my continuously fluctuating health spectrum. Nothing to do but deal with it.

I start my summer class next week. I think it will be good. It's Violence in the Family. Although I have a feeling I'll be pretty depressed by the end of it. It's something I need to learn about though.

It's a Belle and Sebastian day. Yes it is.
I need something good to happen. I'm trucking along without it though. It would just be nice.

So, I barely use this anymore. I barely use it to write anyway. Everything is very hectic with me lately. I feel like putting it down into words just makes it worse.

At the moment, I'm about to finish up my spring semester. I've done magnificently this time. I'm proud of myself for doing much better than I have been lately. It wasn't easy. Previously there was just as many things standing in my way, but I tried to ignore that this time. I'm hoping to finish out the term with 2 As and 2 Bs. I know for sure I have an A in one class, and am almost positive to the other. I could hope for an A in psychobiology, but I would have had to have aced the final. The good news is even if I bombed the final I will still have a B in the class (that's an accomplishment for me... I took that class on purpose because I'm bad in that area). Hopefully I'll end with a high B. I was hoping to have an A in my eating disorders class, but as interesting as it was the teacher did very little in preparation for tests. That and the fact that I knew the TA (who makes me nervous) was grading our tests did not bode well for me. I have a low B and I have the final at 8 am today. I really do know the material well. The TA really does just throw me off. I'm kind of pissed that I let that effect me. I believe I can do well with this, hopefully I can still manage an A somehow. I should have tried to do the extra credit, but I never got around to them. They were kind of just supposed to be emotional conversations with the teacher, and I don't really feel comfortable with her.

I don't really know what I was blabbering on about there. Speaking of teachers though, my personality teacher more or less changed my life (as did my psychobio teacher). I was talking to her at the end of the semester and I may look into doing an independent study with her as my director. I feel like I would get so much from that. She's just so great at conveying the information she has.

Uh... I should really go to bed.
I can do well on this final. Yes...
There is confidence in that, I swear.

So, for future reference, Michael Jackson sing alongs are a good idea. They are an especially great idea when you are with people you enjoy. Who doesn't like to spend the entire night doubled over laughing? Or singing/dancing to Michael Jackson songs.
With all the news that surrounds Michael Jackson and the fact that he's kind of a nutter, it makes me forget that I do indeed enjoy his music. Tonight was a good reminder. His videos are ridiculous.

I think I'm covered in random confetti.

Also, I probably will be attending http://www.thrilltheworld.com/ .
Oh yes.

There are reasons that after 2 years I haven't quit my pain in the ass job serving coffee. Tonight was one of them.

I really do enjoy the people I work with. I also enjoy laughing so hard that I can barely speak right now.
We're all going to a Michael Jackson sing along this weekend. Hilarity to come? I believe so.

What else? What else?
I'm going to the doctors in the morning to hopefully get to the bottom of whats going on with my shoulder. It really has been a problem for the past few weeks.

I've just completely lost interest in this post. Uh ohs